Here’s To Sam

The 2nd of July 2016 was a great day of celebration. Miss Sam a very beautiful woman inside and out celebrated her birthday.

You see it wasn’t just another birthday, my friend has been through the grinding mill with this horrid thing they call cancer.

She was given 18 months to live it’s been a long painful isolating journey one I couldn’t be there to help with.

Sam is my hero she has the strength and tanacity I wish I had. She’s loving caring will give the clothes off her back to help those in need.

It’s that heart of compassion that saw the best in those who were disadvantaged, without food or medical assistance ,  that heart that was not afraid to pray with a boldness and assurance of who her father God is.

Sam is living proof of the goodness and power of God. Where many would have given up she presses in believing the promise God gave her.

Tomorrow is not promised to any of us. Life is short. Do the things you always wanted to do, each day do one thing that will bring you closer to being the person you want to be.

Other people’s opinions about you don’t matter it’s God’s opinion that counts.

Sam my friend I celebrate you I’m so blessed to have you in my life. Let’s live with  childlike faith.

Thank you father for the plans you have for Sam to prosper her and give her a great future Jer.29.11

She will fulfil her destiny and see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.

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Freedom 2016

2016 has started on a good note. My friend Rumbi Bvunzawabaya is hosting ” Freedom 2016″ women’s conference in Solihull , England.

It’s an exciting time.  So many people are going through stuff and don’t know why they just can’t move on.

This conference deals with the root of issues not the fruit, for example the issue of anger.Sometimes  you can be getting along just fine until someone pushes your button and you totally lose it. It could be there were anger issues from childhood that you never dealt with and now in adulthood you wonder why the smallest thing affects you.

Another is perfectionism, the all or nothing attitude,look back ,it could be everything you did was never good enough for your parents your teacher someone you looked up to. What drives you? Who do you need approval from?

These are just a few of the things that will be addressed.

There is nothing that the Lord can’t change but you have to be willing to have the painful surgery done by the Holy Spirit if you want to walk in Freedom.

Come and join us on 26-27 February 2016, Renewal Conference Centre, Lode Lane, Solihull,B91 2JR

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Where I’m at

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Isaiah 61.10-11.AMP
 I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul will exult in my God; for He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decks himself with a garland, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. For as [surely as] the earth brings forth its shoots, and as a garden causes what is sown in it to spring forth, so [surely] the Lord God will cause rightness and justice and praise to spring forth before all the nations [through the self-fulfilling power of His word].

I’ve been listening to ” Into The Light” by Laura Woodley Osman.
http://youtu.be/5HmiQO6fB6Y

Just so overwhelmed by the love of God.
Prayer
Lord you saw me at my weakest, see me my worst and still you love me.
In spite of my flaws and imperfections, the many times I can’t forgive myself for the heavy weight of guilt and regret, shame…..
You Lord took it upon yourself
Forgive me for my pride for not believing you. You were nailed to the cross for all of it so I can walk with my head held upright.
Thank you for your never ending love for me, for never giving up on me.
Lord for the many out there who are carrying heavy burdens of guilt,shame, regret.. you know the deepest hurts the words unspoken. You saw it all before it even happened , you went through all that pain took the nails for us.
Cover your children with your banner of love help us to walk free in your love.

Yet will I Praise Him

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There are times when I find myself in a place where all I can do is surrender it all to the Lord which is what I should do instead of trying to fix things or get myself all worked up.

Being in the diaspora and my sons back in Zimbabwe  my motherly instinct is Lord I’m hurting for them if I could be with them to comfort them to hold them close and let them know I’m with them through this.

Death is never an easy thing. To loose someone close to you, in  spite of age or sickness , it still hurts to know you will never see them again.

When the cares of my heart are many your consolations cheer my soul.
But the Lord has become my stronghold,and my  God the rock of my refuge (Psalm 94: 19,24)

But I will sing of your strength; I will sing aloud of your steadfast love in the morning.
For you have been to me a fortress and a refuge in the day of my distress.
O my Strength, I will sing praises  to you, for you, O God, are my fortress, the God who shows me steadfast love.
(Psalm 59: 16-17)

Even in the midst of the turmoil my trust and faith my hope is in you Lord. You know all things you are the father to the fatherless you comfort those who morn.

Prayer
Father for those who are hurting, be it from the loss of a loved one, divorce or separation. Unfulfilled dreams whatever it might be. Father you know, you see, you care.
Wrap each precious son and daughter in your arms let them feel your love. Meet them at their point of need.
In Jesus name

Zimbabwe Arise from Death

As a nation of Zimbabwe many people have become disheartened, not seeing the promises God gave or seeing the prophecies fulfilled. The situation seems hopeless.

Zimbabweans even in the diaspora are facing many challengesfinding having left family back home I order to provide a better life.

Zimbabwe you have felt as a nation you have died and all that is left is to be buried and forgotten. Don’t give up !! now is not the time to give up.

Word of encouragement Zimbabwe, God has not forgotten you. You are loved the apple of his eye.

In Luke 7 :11-17 AMP

“Soon afterward, Jesus went to a town called Nain, and His disciples and a great throng accompanied Him. [Just] as He drew near the gate of the town, behold, a man who had died was being carried out–the only son of his mother, and she was a widow; and a large gathering from the town was accompanying her. And when the Lord saw her, He had compassion on her and said to her, Do not weep. And He went forward and touched the funeral bier, and the pallbearers stood still. And He said, Young man, I say to you, arise [from death]! And the man [who was] dead sat up and began to speak. And [Jesus] gave him [back] to his mother. Profound and reverent fear seized them all, and they began to recognize God and praise and give thanks, saying, A great Prophet has appeared among us! And God has visited His people [in order to help and care for and provide for them]! And this report concerning [Jesus] spread through the whole of Judea and all the country round about.  

Zimbabwe do not weep the Lord has seen and has compassion.
Father when all seems hopeless it’s all just a struggle to get through from day to day not knowing where the next meal is going to come from. We choose to fix our eyes on you. We can’t make it on our own but we wait for you, we hold onto your hand, hold onto your promises, for Your word is true. We thank you for reviving us as a nation as a people you love.

Thank you father you are Jehovah the most High there is no other but you. Be exalted be enthroned as Lord over our lives and over our land of Zimbabwe in Jesus name.

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Celebrate Life

Today I CELEBRATE LIFE. 

I have said it so many times that life is a gift from God,BUT over the last few weeks I have really come to appreciate the meaning of those words.

There are many close friends and relatives who have been diagnosed with cancer, I’m so angry ,not with God but with cancer.

There was a time when HIV was the most talked about,most incurable disease that was robbing families of their loved ones.

It’s been 13 years today since I was diagnosed with HIV. The Lord has been faithful, He has kept me ,provided for me ,shown me his love through it all.

In spite of all I have been through with the HIV journey ,it is so difficult when I’m told the horrible news that someone has cancer. Yes I have been through pain and felt I wanted to give up at times, does that make me an expert to give advice? No I can’t say I understand what they are going through. 

Its a different walk in so many ways. When words are few it is only in prayer that I can cry out to the Lord and have my pity party about why it’s so unfair and letting God deal with the issues deal with the healing , the hurt and with the in between stuff that people don’t know or talk about.

I am really thankful to the Lord for giving me the chance to get to 49 although I still feel 30 something. 

Psalm 118:17 “I shall live and not die and declare the works of the Lord” This has been the anchor scripture that has kept me going for the past 13 years. God has never failed me. I’m still here!!

Psalm 103:1-5 “Bless the Lord O my soul,and all that is within me, bless his holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul,and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases,who redeems your life from the pit,who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the Eagles”. I look at the pictures that showed now sick I was, the Lord has totally renewed me it is only by his Grace. Thank you Lord.

I celebrate all the wonderful people out there who are fighting the battle with cancer you are my heroes!!

Prayer

Father I thank you for the precious gift of life. For all who are dealing with cancer,father strengthen them, let them feel the tangible presence of your love for them,  when they feel they can’t go on help them to know you are with them ever so close to them ,you feel their pain, you see their tears. Be Jehovah Jireh God their provider for many it’s difficult to put a meal on the table to feed their children. Father the treatment is costly but you are the great I AM show yourself strong, you are God of the impossible.

Help us to be sensitive, to always be those who speak life, only speaking positive things, not out of pity or judgement but out of love. May we be slow to speak and quick to listen. In Jesus name. Amen

David never asked to be King

There are days where things happen and I ask myself why I’m really bothering  what the purpose of it all is?

Some of the choices I’ve made are really not good and the consequences have left so many regrets.

Regrets for the hardships my children and family had to go through, the mental and physical pain seeing me going through the HIV wondering if I was going to die as my body wasted away.  The hard times of living in places no child should live surrounded by prostitutes, thieves and  drug dealers.

The biggest regret now is living so far away from them, 7 years of our lives torn apart distance grows more each day.

I wonder what has played the biggest part in their lives and how they have coped with out me.

BUT

Regret is something that I’m working on God has  forgiven me and I’m learning to forgive myself which is the hardest thing.My prayer is that my children will truly forgive me and move on to healthy relationships with God and their future spouses as well as with me.

Through it all God has never forgotten us he has always been there leading, directing protecting and providing.  Even in this situation  all has not been lost my sons the pride and joy of my life are mighty men of valor who in spite of the adversities have learnt to stand on their own, have matured and appreciate things more God is still there playing and important part in their lives.

When David was anointed king he didn’t ask to be king he was busy looking after his fathers’ sheep doing his exploits with the bear and lion protection what belonged to him and his family.  1. Samuel 16. 11 “ And Samuel said to Jesse, “Are all the young men here?” Then he said, “There remains yet the youngest, and there he is, keeping the sheep.”

It doesn’t matter where you are right now in your life God might be asking you to step out of your comfort zone and you might be happy where your at doing the things that keep you in the background away from leadership .  God knows you are not perfect all he wants is for you to surrender it to him and trust him to lead you to the place where you can be king in your own right and when you fail repent God will lead you after all He made you king to rule and reign not to stay hidden looking after the sheep.

This past week I’ve been doing quite a bit of reflecting on my life and the decisions I have made. There are many which I must admit have not been good and the consequences  I’m still dealing with.